You’re little now, and I love every minute of it, but I want you to know I’m holding back. I’m holding back trinkets and blankets, memories and emotions, because I know you will need them when you’re grown.
I’m saving the first clipping of your hair, and the story of how I did it myself and it was kind of crooked.
I’m saving your Great Grandma’s ring for you, if she’d met you she would have just loved that you are twins.
I’m saving the blankets your Aunt made, no matter how grungy they are when you are done with them.
I will always save the last bite of whatever I’m eating, because you are bound to want some.
I’m saving your wooden rattles from Grandma in hopes that some day I will see your kids shaking them. No pressure.
I’m saving my most creative craft ideas so I can teach them to you, and you can take all the credit for your masterpieces.
I’m collecting memories of your Great Grandpa’s that you never met. They each had things that I hope I can teach you for them.
I’m saving your height every few months with a mark on the wall, I will cry for this loss when we move to a new house.
I’m saving the Harry Potter movies for when you’ve already read the books, so you can have an even deeper love and appreciation for the written word.
I’m saving the best vacations for when you are old enough to enjoy and remember them.
I’m saving your first attempt at coloring, finger painting, writing letters, and such, so you can see how far you’ve come.
I’m saving my attempts at your baby books and homemade clothes, so you can see how far I’ve come.
I’m saving the sex talk until you are old enough to be embarrassed about it.
I’m saving my stories of heartache, to share with you the first time your heart is truly broken.
I’m saving a spot in my heart for when you get married because I know you will want me to love your significant other as much as I love you. Which is impossible, but I’ll do my best.
Finally, I’m NOT saving any laughter, fun, tears, happiness, comfort, kisses, hugs, joy, empathy or excitement. For these are things I will give to you every day, you will never have to remember them.